Frog Hunting: Dating Funk

I don’t want to date anymore! 

I just don’t. 

I can’t really explain it. I just don’t want to do it. Dating is stupid. 

I managed to go a week not getting on the app. I knew I needed to get on the app. But I just didn’t want to. The longer I procrastinated, the worse I felt for leaving about five conversations hanging. The longer I waited, the more I really, really did not want to get on the app. My enthusiasm lessened—rather than increased—with time. I thought about deleting the app, declaring my forever-spinsterhood, and just having done. 

Every time I thought about getting on the app, I would cringe. 

How, oh how, do I get my motivation back? 

Most of the advice I got from friends when I expressed my downward spiral: “Don’t do something you don’t want to do.” 

Not helpful. 

Give me a pep talk at least! 

Come on, team. We’re in this together. 

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There it is, the breakdown I knew would come eventually. It makes the series because it’s part of the process. Though I’m crawling out of the funk—and a funk it truly is—I needed days, weeks, to remined myself why this was worth it. 

Why is it worth it? 

Tomorrow I’ll share some reasons. 

Thanks for enduring my rant. 

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