Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Wild and Extravagant Love


We pray often that God would provide for us. Rarely do we pray that God would marvel and wow us.

Why is that?

Part of me is afraid that God will really come through. Supernatural or miraculous instances scare me sometimes. They are out of the ordinary and force me to only credit God as the author. They are unsafe. They are abnormal.

The other part of me is afraid that God won’t come through. I’m afraid I’ll pray for something big, something impossible, put my heart out there to be filled with hope and then have that hope crushed when the impossible is revealed for what I thought it was: impossible. I have to tell myself, “I told you so” and walk away trying not to become hardened.

It all comes down to trusting the Big Man. Trusting that He has the power to do anything, everything. He created the entire world from nothing and became a man to walk the face of the earth. He’s got all the power and then some. There is nothing He can’t do.

It also comes down to trusting that He is good. Maybe this one is harder. I don’t struggle with believing that God is capable of doing something. I only struggle with whether or not God loves me enough to do this thing.

I know God loves me. We need no other proof than Jesus’ death on the cross. I just sometimes feel that His reaction to my prayers will be, “I’ve done enough. You know I love you. Stop putting me to the test. You have plenty and your life is better than most people’s. Why would you be so selfish and ask Me for more?”

I have trouble believing in that wild and extravagant love that will do great and impossible things just to declare His love for His children.

I have trouble believing in that wild and extravagant love even though I’ve seen it displayed hundreds of times in my life and in the lives of others.

That’s why I’m here. That’s why I’m writing today. I want to recount those ways He’s loved me and provided for me. I want to recount the stories of others. I want to remember and praise Him and then boldly ask Him for desires that are bursting in my heart.

My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There’s nothing my God cannot do

The mountains are His, the rivers are His
The stars are his handiwork too
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There’s nothing my God cannot do

(From Veggie Tunes)

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